Rambling About Free Time

I've had a nice last week or so. For some reason there seem to be fewer things on my plate to take care of. Perhaps it's in contrast to the weekend before last when I was working from home, or perhaps it's because my taxes are done. Whatever the reason I feel like I have some free time. I spent the weekend helping some friends move, watching Heroes, taking care of orchids and relaxing at home. I had the house to myself for several hours over the weekend which gave me some time to relax and re-energize as well. I feel like I have time to study Japanese at my leisure rather than feeling guilty for reading instead. I feel like I have time for both, which means that instead of avoiding Japanese because I want to read and not reading to avoid guilt I actually do both. And I enjoy both. Amazing.

(Something else that's amazing is that I really like typing. I'm realizing this now because I'm frustrated that I type the letters but am forced to wait for them to show up. I'm frustrated because it ruins the easy fluid feeling that's some kind of magic for me.)

Perhaps I don't actually have less to do or have more free time, I just think I do. Perspective has come up a couple times for me this week. It affects everything. If only it weren't so hard to keep certain perspectives. Kaleb has actually forced me to question some perspectives that I've adopted over the years and remember some that I'd forgotten. I thought I was doing an ok job for a Midwestern girl, but though I've been living a little on the surface I've been getting old underneath. At what age did I start to think more about skinned knees and bruises than wind and sunshine and fun?

Anyway, I've had this free time (or feel like I have) but there are still things I'm not keeping up with. *ahem* So, I'm getting out a sharpie to write a reminder on my hand...


Tags: free time, time, perspective, typing, guilt